I can’t remember the last time I felt completely safe. Security seemed more like a luxury to me, reserved for those who were fortunate enough to have picture perfect childhoods. For those who didn’t bear the ugly scars that keep me bound in constant, debilitating fear. I’ve run from that fear my entire life. But when I met him, for once, I couldn’t run anymore.
He scared the hell out of me in a way that excited every fiber of my being. It wasn’t the tattoos or the piercings. It wasn’t the warmth that seemed to radiate from his frame and blanket me whenever he was near. It was just…him. The scary beautiful man that threatened to alter 23 years of routine and rituals, and make me face my crippling fear.
My name is Kami and I am constantly afraid. And the thing that scares me the most is the very thing I want.
“Don’t worry,” he smiled, pulling me into the hard warmth of his chest. “I’ve got you. I’ll always catch you when you fall.”
And just like that, Blaine had staked his claim on the untouched part of me that no living soul had ever moved. He had captured every fear, every reservation, and crushed them in the palm of his inked hand.
Author Disclaimer: Abuse is real- verbal, emotional, physical and sexual. It takes place all around us; it doesn’t discriminate against race or gender, wealth or poverty. It affects us all- those of us who’ve had to live through it, or watch it happen, even those of us who’ve only heard about it. We are all affected. We are all forever changed.
This is not a story for the faint of heart; this is the story of one woman’s very real struggle through a world against her, the people who hurt her, her real life demons and the people who showed her that every gray sky, no matter how dark, has a sun waiting to break through.
Fear of Falling starts with Kami getting a job at the bar where she met the sexy bartender Blaine. She knows that he's different from any other guy she has ever met, and now she's afraid. She's afraid of falling for him, of him getting close to her and finding out all of her secrets.
Blaine is a man with a few secrets of his own, but he knows he wants Kami from the moment he meets her. He also knows that she is hiding a lot, but he's able to see through her mask she pulls on everyone.
As Kami starts to work for him the two of them start a crazy relationship that neither are sure how it will turn out. Kami is dead sent against anyone loving her, or her loving others. And Blaine is determined to prove Kami wrong.
This is a not so nice tale of a women trying to get past all of the abuse of her past. It has some pretty graphic abuse parts, and lots of heartfelt sorrow. Kami is just a women who doesn't know how to love, and be loved in return. She doesn't think very highly of herself, and she has a lot of fears.
Blaine is someone who has been hurt in his past, but he has this crazy brave determination that I admired in this story. And the side characters added a whole lot of extra support, fun, and drama to the whole story.
Overall the story was really good. I enjoyed reading it even though at some points I just wanted to crawl into a corner and cry. I do recommend this book, but I also give a warning of not going into this story seeing rainbows, because you will see whole lot of gray skies with no light in sight.